Wednesday, 30 July 2008

After a long break

It's been a while since I last wrote here. A few things have happened.

1. finals
2. leaving ox
3. conversion exams in HK
4. graduation trip with family in ox, london, Paris and Berlin
5. got a chance to go back to ox for the BCL
6. my little education project about HK and Finland

I've come back to HK for a week now and it's probably the first real break i've had for a rather long time. All along the last couple of years, there's been quite a lot of (very normal) pressure on me regarding studies and job-hunting. In the back of my mind I knew that there was something I had to do and time was a scarcity. I have been sleeping loads these days and am feeling lazier than ever - so sluggish that I don't want to do anything, see anyone, or even the easiest things like making calls. I'm only teaching students out of necessity, and my passivity becomes dominant again. My motivation for everything has dwindled except sports, reading and teaching perhaps. Maybe it's also because I had been alone for too long - I am finding it difficult to actually get used to the lifestyle in HK and seeing my old friends again. There are always plenty of excuses. I hope this doesn't mean i've become an irritable snob who has alienated everyone. I'm just feeling a bit weird, nothing seems to interest me at all. Everythings a spot of bother.

I should describe this syndrome as mental disorder, not very creative. I think I need a proper break away from everything. I need to get away! ARGH!